My Diary (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡

August 30, 2014

Wow… it’s been years, huh? I never thought I’d be writing here again, but here I am. ️

So much has changed since the old days. We were all just kids, weren’t we? Messing around on forums, staying up late to watch subs, and dreaming about fictional worlds that felt more real than reality itself.

I haven’t touched this site in forever, and honestly, I’ve moved on from most of the stuff I used to love. Life gets busy, y'know? Jobs, responsibilities... growing up. But sometimes, I miss it. The late-night anime marathons, the excitement of new releases, the people I met here... I even miss *you*. Whoever’s still reading this, thank you for sticking around.

But I think it’s time to officially close this chapter of my life.

This blog’s been a part of me for so long, but it’s time to move on.

It’s strange, feeling like I’m saying goodbye to an old friend, but I guess that’s how it is. Things change. People change. And it’s okay to let go. 🌸

So... this is it. I’m not sure where life’s taking me next, but I won’t be coming back here. The internet’s changed so much since the early 2000s, and so have I.

If you’re still here, reading this, I hope you're doing well, and I hope you're finding your own path, wherever that may be.

Thanks for the memories.

Goodbye, Hoshi

PS: I went through some of my old posts and deleted a few... you know, kinda cringed at what I used to write 😅.

November 1, 2009

He's gone. It’s been months now and still nothing. I don’t know why I kept waiting, hoping he’d come back. I keep telling myself I shouldn’t care anymore but like... I can't help it, y’know?

I guess I was in love with him this whole time, but I was too scared to admit it. Now I’ll never know if he felt the same way. It's dumb, right? All those late nights talking online and we never even met irl.

There’s this weird rumor going around the forum tho... ppl are saying he “woke up” or something. Like... wut? It’s prob just bs, but if it’s true... I just hope he’s ok, wherever he is.

August 15, 2009

Still no word from him. Ppl on the forum are saying he's gone for good now. I don't wanna believe it. How can someone just disappear like that? It’s like he just... vanished from the net.

I miss our chats. I miss him. But idk what to do... I've re-read all our messages, and nothing seems off. No clue why he stopped talking to me. Ugh. This sucks. (T_T)

July 15, 2009

Still can't get *Vocaloid* songs out of my head. 🎤 Hatsune Miku’s voice is EVERYTHING. Been learning how to make my own tracks—wish me luck!

Maybe I’ll post one here someday if it doesn’t sound totally cringe lol.

June 22, 2009

He’s barely online these days. It’s kinda freaking me out... I mean, he was like the one constant in my life on the forum. Now it's like he’s slipping away. Did I say something wrong??

I really wanna tell him who I am, but I’m too scared. What if he doesn’t remember me? What if it’s all in my head?? (・_・;)

December 3, 2008

Spent all day watching *Toradora!*—and omg, Taiga is the definition of smol but fierce. It’s such a cute anime, but also like, full of feelings.

Ryuuji and Taiga better end up together or I’m rioting! (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ

June 20, 2008

Started playing *Final Fantasy X* again—YES, AGAIN. It’s like my comfort game at this point. Yuna and Tidus still make me cry every time T_T

“This is my story” gets me every time. Anyone else obsessed with Blitzball?

April 3, 2008

OMG. I think I figured it out. I know who he is... irl!! His real name and everything. It's gotta be him, like... everything he says just lines up. It's so freaky.

But... wut do I do now? Do I tell him I know? What if he thinks I’m some kinda stalker?? No way. But... I can’t help it, I feel like I've known him forever. Maybe he’s forgotten me? Or maybe it’s better if he never knows.

February 14, 2008

So, it’s Valentine’s Day... and guess who’s single AGAIN lol. But honestly, I don’t mind. I treated myself to some chocolates and binged *Love’s Final Note* instead. It’s still my fave romance anime, can’t get enough of it.

Besides, who needs a date when you’ve got fictional crushes to keep you company? (≧∇≦)ノHappy V-Day to all my fellow singles out there!

January 7, 2008

Just finished the *Death Note* rewatch and wow, it still holds up. Light’s such a genius, but like, I can’t decide if I actually like him or not??

December 3, 2007

Finally caught up with *Ouran High School Host Club*! How did I sleep on this for so long? It’s hilarious! Tamaki is such a dork, and Haruhi’s just... goals.

Totally shipping Haruhi x Tamaki tho. (づ￣ ³￣)づ

November 8, 2007

We had another long chat today... it's like we're always on the same page, y'know? He’s so easy to talk to. But idk, sometimes it feels like I know him from somewhere... like we’ve met before? Weird, right?

Could just be me overthinking it, tho. I mean, it’s not like we’ve ever met irl. Lol, who am I kidding... I’d probs die of embarrassment if we did. (￣∇￣)

October 22, 2007

Just finished the *Death Note* rewatch and wow, it still holds up. Light’s such a genius, but like, I can’t decide if I actually like him or not??

That ending tho... still gives me chills. Anyone else rewatching this classic?

October 7, 2007

OMG, I finally got my hands on the new *Nightfall* album, and it’s EVERYTHING! I’ve had it on repeat all day, I’m obsessed. The lead singer’s voice is just so hauntingly beautiful. (ღ✪v✪)ღ

Can’t wait to see them live next month! It's gonna be EPIC! Anyone else going? We should totally meet up!

June 5, 2006

Ughhh, study is dragging on forever! T_T I can’t wait for summer break. Just a few more weeks… I feel like I haven’t slept properly in ages.

At least I got some cute gifs today! They’re totally gonna make my diary look way better.

June 2, 2006

I've been spending waaay too much time online lately, haha. Found this new forum and it's been fun chatting with everyone. Especially HIM.

We’ve been talking a lot and idk... I feel like we click.

Is it weird that I feel closer to someone I’ve never met than to ppl irl? Ugh, whatever. He’s cool, and I like talking to him. Hope he feels the same. ヽ(•‿•)ノ

May 14, 2006

OMG, so I finally did it!!! I made this site! I’ve always wanted a cute little space on the web, and now it’s real!!! (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡

It took me like forever to figure out all the HTML stuff, but it's up and running now. YAY!! I’m still learning tho, so don’t judge too hard, ok?

I wanna make this site super cute, with all my fave stuff and I’ll prob update my diary here when I feel like it. It’s kinda fun having a little corner of the internet all to myself.

If you’re reading this, welcome!! Feel free to look around. More updates coming soon!